Why do my heart feels so restless, after looking at those of your smoking photos that posted by ur friend at ur FB account?
U told me that u're already trying your best cutting down smoking.
but to my question is that, do u really put in effort to give it a try? NO!.. u didn't even try!..

u want me to accept who u are.. i can accept for who u are.
For what i believe is that there's no one in this world that born out to this world, will started to smoke.
u choose to smoke, there's no one force u to somke. God gave everyone the choice to choose.
Not that once u step in for smoking and u can't walk out of the darkness. U still can walk out the darkness,
u just have to give yourself a chance to try stop smoking.

Your dad smoke, do u really have to follow?
Your friends surrounded u, they smoke. do u really have to follow them?
Your cousins smoke, do u really have to follow them?
Do u really need to follow doing such foolish stuff that harm your body?

So what? Smoking doesn't mean that you are a bad person. But to me i'm just so 'NO' to Smoke!..
I don't care is a good/bad person.

I've already tired to care so much  about your life. I've already told u for so many times but non of  the one time u're listening me for the advice and suggestions that i gave you. 

Thought that calling u will make some different, will make u feel that i really love u a lot.
But if calling u, there doesn't make any different for u. Ya, fine. I'm not calling u seldom.
Every time on the phone with u, why i'm the person who spoke the most?
And you're over there, answering my questions, no question for me..
I'm tired.. i'm really tired of this.

Said that this is your habit?
I don't think so honey.
Remember u told me before? Last time before knowing me, u fall in love with a girl so much. U used Ben phone to called her? And you enjoy chatting with her on the phone. ?

The both of us never seems to enjoy any chat on the phone?
why? Why honey? Tell me why?
You told me that you love me. But everything was crap!..
U're lying to me..
In this relationship, everything is about me who carried on in this relationship. U don't even wanted to care about me.


Just want to let u know that i do really love u a lot my dear. (:
Xoxoxo u..