Hmmm,today still can't wake up on time for sunday school..Im so tired..I doesnt know why wake up early for school i can wake up,but for going to church for sunday school i was like so lazy to wake up..I wish i can sleep again.. HAhahaxD too bad lah cannot..
Anyway,today step out from house already 1010am already,wait for bus must wait at least 20 min.. reach church at 1035am.Left 30min for the lesson..
Hmmmm,today the topic talks about ' Relationship '
Should we started a bgf relationship when we're still secondary??? Jc???Polytechnic????University???
From what i've learn today is we can't go for a relationship with a non-christian.God makes this command earlyssss...I doesnt know is command or what.... But i know that the teachers told us about it..
There's still many more... but i really cant rmb abt it..I but blur sotong.xP

Yea!.. Anyway,after the lesson over,teachers told us to ask question if there's question wanted to ask..So,i decided to ask.. I ask Weizhou laoshi.I asked him '' i like a guy for 2 and the half years already.Since he knew that i like him already,but how come he doesnt react???Doesnt tell me the answer.??" and i added ''The guy react like he doesnt seems like to talk much to me.He can chit chat with other girls but just not me . And more.... ''
Weizhou said'' Since he's like that,he has already tell you the answer already,by his body language.He doesnt like you.''
At that time while i was talking to Weizhou laoshi,the guy was opposite me.I doesnt know he got hear it or not.

Last week,i told myself that this is the last time i cried for the guy already.i doesnt wanted to think of him anymore.. after that day,i tried and tired but my mouth keep coming out his name..and my mind keep thinking of him..

God....i've many week lost direction..i felt that my distance to you is so far.I did pray,but when i pray i started to get tired and felt alsleep.i did not obey what u wanna me to do.i didnt do quite time.i never spent time with you..and those week when came to praise and worship my heart is not really focus on praising you.. i kept thinking of the guy..Father,you got to save me out from evil things... i dont wanna this type of life... i wanna a christian life i can everyday pray to you,read God words ( like last time of me,get so curious to know more about you) ,praise and worship time my heart is belong to you.. Father,please help me....
I'm sorry, i never love you like how you love me.I'm sorry i didnt read your words.I'm sorry you told me to have patient for somethings..but i didnt.. everythings i do just to said sorrry OOOhhh my Father.. Please listen to your daughter calling you.. I know i'm different now,cause Father you save my soul back to you,you died on cross your blood waste away my sin.I'm sorry Father... I'm really sorry ...