Doesn't know why tomorrow gone to start school already i've felt no enegry within my body already .. Felt that i'm going to fever that kind .. Maybe course of tomorrow having PE Lesson , Im the PE Rap .. I need to report to the teacher attendance . And Napfa Test is coming !AHHHH !!! I dont wanna .. can i just fail my Napfa Test ! 2.4km .Thats really wanns to kill me .. And thinking of that tomorrow gone start school im going to bear another 5 month for my the classmates that in my class ... I really tired of them already .. When can they stop their nosier ???! Did i do anything wrong to make them hate me so much ???? If yes , Yuling me apologise to uu girls .. Im sorry .. If no , i just wanna to tell u girls somethings .. bully people will make u girls happy in ur whole life ??? will u get any reward ????? as u girls never get people bully before u girls will never understand what i felt ,hey girls it's very difficult for me to get myself to stand up again ... And u girls kept looking down on me , i really felt no confident within myself to do anything that wating for me to do ... It's like every sunday , im having sunday school at church . I will be goin every sunday , bt cause of u girls kept looking down on me make me with no confident ...

I still remember last month sec 4NT Camp , my class having camp , there's coach teaching my class .. W played games . Those who lose have to do 4 feet .. I and my 3 classmates get 4 feet .. I wondering what teacher gone to gave us the 4 feet .. I was like so scare , cause i've no confident to do the 4 feet . At last , teacher choose us to do something like using backside to draw out alphber ..when i heard that i was like shivering away ... Cause of that i knew that the girl in my class that love to bully me alot will sabo me with doing it again .. It's my turn to use my backside to draw a alpher out already .. I shivering away ... kept shivering ... cause of that i have no confident within myself .. after drawing , the girl that bully me said loudly " Why u guys say out the alpher that she drawn .. actually i wanna to guess wrongly to let her redraw and redraw again 1 !!! " I was like telling myself that 'WHY???? why u wanna to said that ????? why u wanna to hurt my heart again ????? do uu know that im shivering away cause of uuuuuuu ..... cause of uu i cant do things that waiting for me to do .... '

In ur heart am i really make uu hate me so much ???? I just wanna to know the reason ...... I'm sad when i type out all this things out ..... !! I cried out ! Just pray that Father can help me in my school life ! Can i just dont go to school !!!! Im tired , im really tired !!!

I've been getting bully by the girl since 6 years .. Im tired !! Im sick and tired !!! I dont wanna to stay in S'pore anymore !!! i dont wanna .... !!!! i dont wanna to stay in a bad memory at this place ... after N Level Father please please let me go back to Jakarta .. My life will be more happi over there ... At Jakarta i've my grandma , Mommy .. and Uncle they will make me smile ... they will let me forget about my bad memory !!! x(

Dad , Mom .. I hope uu can understand what i felt .... Yuling is really really tired ....