Whenever discuss, share, tell things with u, u always ended with words ' up to u '
why can't u give me opinion, suggestions?
It seems to be totally non of your business. Seriously i don't understand what's the words ' BGR Relationship ' for? God created relations, is to let each other communicate with each other.

Totally disappointed and have a feeling making me, if there's anything i won't be sharing, telling and discuss with you anymore, or i will reduce to letting you know.
It seems to be, you are not interested in me at all. U totally no feeling with me at all.
Every time hear ' up to u ' from your mouth, really cannot tolerate.
Wondering how come there's you this kind of person in this world.?
Could u please know how people feel and think about yourself?
Just hope that you can change, if not i really don't know how long can i tolerate this.

Boyfriend cannot replace God place in my heart.
Jesus is the first.
Boyfriend cannot accompany 24 hours.
But Jesus able to be with me 24 hours.
when you're sad, you need your boyfriend, not always your boyfriend will be there for u.
But God will always there for u whenever you feel sad, disappointed, angry ....
He listen to every of his child prayer.
He may be slow to reply your prayer, but that doesn't mean that he never answer your prayer.
God has his own perfect timing for everyone, every thing.
He love every one of us in this world.
When you need him, he will never leave you.
even if you want to leave him, trust me that he won't want to leave you.
Cause he love us a lot, God send his loving and only son on earth to use his blood to wash away our sin on the cross for us. He's a human for past century, he knows how human feel and he knows what human want.
He died on the cross for us, but on the third day he rise up again. what a amazing God! Praise God!..
If he didn't rise up on the third day, he's not God anymore.
But he rose up again.!..

It already past 3 days and we didn't contact each other.
Tonight, i online FB. Saw u online FB too.
But i choose not to chat with u, i don't want to be so despress anymore.
I wait for u to chat with me. I don't want to be a chaser anymore, I'm tired to be a chaser.
Being a chaser wasn't that easy, it really put in a lot of effort, time and money.
If the person do not appreciate, you will just feel so hurt.

why ? why i didn't call u ? I'm too disappointed after looking at the photos on your fb account.
it just broke my heart. I don't want a guy who smoke. It doesn't look gentlemen at all.

I hope that you keep your words. You told me that you will quit smoking, i hope that you will not lie to me.

Do u remember you told me when i'm wrong? '' if you don't want people to cheat you, you your ownself don't cheat on people. ''
i hope that you can don't lie to me.
Don't smoke behind of me.
If u do that, you will really hurt me a lot.

I myself  HATE smoke.
I HATE touching them.
I HATE their smell.
I don't want my family member / love one to touch them,
cause it will take away your life. I love my family and my love one.
I don't want the cigarette take away them from me.
I HATE to be lonely.
I HATE to lost someone i LOVE.

Why do my heart feels so restless, after looking at those of your smoking photos that posted by ur friend at ur FB account?
U told me that u're already trying your best cutting down smoking.
but to my question is that, do u really put in effort to give it a try? NO!.. u didn't even try!..

u want me to accept who u are.. i can accept for who u are.
For what i believe is that there's no one in this world that born out to this world, will started to smoke.
u choose to smoke, there's no one force u to somke. God gave everyone the choice to choose.
Not that once u step in for smoking and u can't walk out of the darkness. U still can walk out the darkness,
u just have to give yourself a chance to try stop smoking.

Your dad smoke, do u really have to follow?
Your friends surrounded u, they smoke. do u really have to follow them?
Your cousins smoke, do u really have to follow them?
Do u really need to follow doing such foolish stuff that harm your body?

So what? Smoking doesn't mean that you are a bad person. But to me i'm just so 'NO' to Smoke!..
I don't care is a good/bad person.

I've already tired to care so much  about your life. I've already told u for so many times but non of  the one time u're listening me for the advice and suggestions that i gave you. 

Thought that calling u will make some different, will make u feel that i really love u a lot.
But if calling u, there doesn't make any different for u. Ya, fine. I'm not calling u seldom.
Every time on the phone with u, why i'm the person who spoke the most?
And you're over there, answering my questions, no question for me..
I'm tired.. i'm really tired of this.

Said that this is your habit?
I don't think so honey.
Remember u told me before? Last time before knowing me, u fall in love with a girl so much. U used Ben phone to called her? And you enjoy chatting with her on the phone. ?

The both of us never seems to enjoy any chat on the phone?
why? Why honey? Tell me why?
You told me that you love me. But everything was crap!..
U're lying to me..
In this relationship, everything is about me who carried on in this relationship. U don't even wanted to care about me.


Just want to let u know that i do really love u a lot my dear. (:
Xoxoxo u..

I miss Juna so much..
not yet work, no money to buy halo card to call him.
Argh!.. miss him so much God..
It's still take so long to let me get back Ptk to meet Baby Juna again.

Yank!.. I miss u!..
want to hug u yank!.. T_T

why do i always get force to choose? ...

He's not Malay!!!!!!
He's just not Malay!.....
why can't u understand????!
He can eat pork meat..

so what dog meat????!..
There also chinese people eat dog meat!..

And who plan that chinese must marry chinese??? ...

seriously hated parents who never give freedom to let us choose..
I have the right to choose what race i want marry..
There's no false to do that...

why do i still care whether i'm still his friend in FB or not??

He's not mine anymore.
I should have let go of him by now.
Now it's he and his gf business now, i shouldn't have bother so much.